Recently another blogger (you know who you are) encouraged me to post more often. So the past few days I have been thinking about what prevents me from posting on a more regular basis. What I notice is that I have a tendency to only post about positive things and I usually want to have a nice picture or two or three to go with my post. Then the question becomes why do I only want to post about positive things when there is so much more that makes up my everyday life. I'm not sure if it is because I want my readers to think that everything is perfect in my life or if it is because I am trying to paint a pretty picture for myself. In general I really try to have a glass is half full type of outlook on life. It takes so much energy to be frustrated, stressed, or angry at myself or others. I would rather spend my energy being happy and productive with my creative endeavors.
However, with all these positive posts, I realize that I am not sharing the real me. The me who gets stressed out and has problems just like everyone else. Which brings me to today. I am happy because I have a bisque load coming out but I am feeling quite melancholic. I have been working to help a loved one take advantage of an opportunity and it just doesn't seem like that is going to come to fruition. There are extenuating circumstances which are too personal to share, but suffice it to say that it is disappointing. It is hard to let go of things that maybe aren't meant to be or that the timing just isn't right for. Even though it is not that important in the larger scheme this disappointment still feels like a loss. I know I will get over this soon and life will get on and it probably will only take a few hours until I am back to my perky self. For now, sorry, no cute pictures. I just feel a little too ho hum.